Marc Carver has had over two thousand poems published on the web and has performed his poems around the world but all he cares about is doing what he knows he has to do. You have to be true to yourself if no one else.
TEN SECOND WINDOW
I could not but think
if I had left five minutes earlier
had a few beers the night before and left later
Went another way
went a little bit faster
not gone at all
but none of it mattered
it would have still been waiting for me whatever I did.
The wrong corner
the wrong time
the wrong day
but in the end
it was all decided before
I could have left later or earlier
it would have made
the only place it could have been
was where it was.
I still believe but I don't know why
Everyday there are less places to find it
They lose because they can't change.
They stick with what they always do
so slowly they stop
and there are less
and less places to find it.
Some day soon they will all be gone
and then you will have to try harder to keep that belief in your heart and mind
Churches keep god alive
they can burn them all down but people will rebuild them
they need faith
they need to believe
I saw the junkie come out of the public toilet
he normally runs around the town centre on a bike
shouting and screaming.
He walked down the street
saw the beggar on the corner
rotted around in his pants and gave him a coin.
The beggar looked up
saw who it was and started to smile and shake his head
He even kept smiling at me until he realized it was me.
He never gets any money from me.
We went to the pub for some food
I asked a young lad if they had any tables
he said no.
"Where are you going." She said.
"There is a table over there."
"Okay I will be in the car."
She came out five minutes later
"We have a choice of two tables." She said.
In we go.
The guy who told me there was no tables
asked me if everything was okay with my meal,
the one he didn't want me to have.
I told him it was okay and gave him a wink.
A man came in and sat at the bar
"Okay John." said the barman
and without having to ask
he had his pint on the bar.
I thought wouldn't it be good to go into a bar and have a drink waiting for you and everybody knowing your name
but I have never stuck around in one place for long enough
and with service like this
you can't blame me.
I went to another dead end town
just to be somewhere else.
It was quiet
a few women in shops smiled at me
and i even got adventurous in Nando's
ordered something different.
There was a table in front of mine
about 10 young men on it
and time after time the girl came up with food and shouted it out
but they couldn't remember what they ordered
and some took other's people's food.
Eventually they got it all.
As i was about to get up for a drink
one of the men got up
He was carrying his plate of chips
but as i got up behind him
he went for a drink
I thought he was going to put some sauce on his chips
but he didn't he just went back to the table
with his drink and plate of chips
I guess he didn't trust the blokes at his table
I can't blame him
sometimes it is hard to trust