![]() Samantha Seto is a Writing Seminars graduate (B.A.) with a History of Art secondary degree of Johns Hopkins University. She is a third prize poet of the Whispering Prairie Press who has been published in various journals or anthologies including Ceremony, Soul Fountain, and Black Magnolias Journal. Samantha also has work published in the Yale Journal for Humanities in Medicine, Brown University's Cornerstone Magazine, Yale Logos, and The Harvard Ichthus. Her twin sister is named Sarah. She lives in Washington, D.C. and went to college in Maryland. The Woods The wild flowers are tall and reach my waist. A map is pointing north in two – diverge. The ink just smears like blood; I will release crumpled paper into the blue river. Like God put trees on earth, a tear may drip. A veil of lavender covers my face, it trails over the ground in bright sunlight. The berries ooze into my hands like sweet honey, the pond has round water lilies. My hands submerge in crystalline water. I trace the moon, it’s bigger than my palm. A waning, holy light of fading hues like Michelangelo is painting frescoes. The willow sheds its leaves in branch water, the birds are chirping, bells that ring in ears. My eyes are glassy, a rose inside a vase. The cacti wither away in heaps of soil. I gaze at twinkling stars in darkened sky, my skirt is gently carried by the wind. I remember the awe of last sunrise. The Night New Year’s Eve arrives in 2016, it fades away like the thick peppermint scent. A basket of tiny cranberries and warm bread on the wooden table in a dimly lit room. A snow angel pressed into white powder, golden sparklers wave in the dark sky, we take Polaroids and hear the music. My friends are dancing, raising glasses of champagne; we wait until the big ball drops, they chant 3, 2, 1, in Times Square on TV. At midnight, I sit on the stairs of beige carpet. His Neptune pale blue eyes like pristine water, he presses his ruby lips to mine and hugs me. I pat the wrinkles in my dress and walk to a velvet chair. I read a note – I love you – in cursive handwriting sealed in a gift. We stare at crumpled mail on the floor. The gold angel shines like a star at the top. I fix my eyes on the Christmas balls hanging from tree branches and notice the plain, carved wooden trinkets of the Nativity, Mary and Joseph cradling the baby Jesus on the mantle. I dream of God. The very minute I wake, I walk to the train station and hop on the first arriving on the tracks. I end up on gray pavement in the town-square, en route to the rose-window of a Gothic cathedral. The old wooden floors are creaky, it’s empty, but I tiptoe to the white altar and pray for my dear resolution to come true. I watch a monk in red cloth light a candle to honor and respect God’s holy throne. The smoke disappears. At the grand church, I wish to mindlessly carve doves into brown wood. I sit alone in a pew near the front and open the Holy Bible’s thin, creased pages to read the fine, black print in the Book of Genesis. The paint is peeling off the wall but it’s covered by a gold-framed portrait of the Lamentation of Christ. Treasures of a church like long rosary beads and a cross are lining the thick, brown wood to praise the Lord. The Pope who lives near the Vatican would approve of this vast house of God with his whole heart. (Yet, the President prefers the White House to govern the entire country. A leading voice in politics for the democracy; which proves there is a separation of church and state.) I stare into the pitch dark, until suddenly a stern, elderly man touches my bare shoulder. I gasp. His face looms over me. I glance at his stiff cane and hunch. The old man gently says “hello.” His soul will rise to Heaven very soon. The guards point to the door, and then I freeze. Candles release smoke diffusing into thin air. I leave through the door into the coldest winter. The moon and stars glow bright in the obdurate sky, brisk snow falls down and brushes against my cheek. I see this year’s resolution is gone. God I was born, Mom says, and held in her gentle arms with tears in almond eyes on the blanket in May my parents recite prayers to God every day. The wool sheep trinkets were my holy charms. I know she saw me take a breath of air and heard my voice whisper a prayer at night. My life is filled with bright, everlasting light, the gifts of a loving heart like my brunette hair. At mass, I open the Bible in my lap, a gold, beaded rosary sits in my palms. The crowd closes their eyes, but I read the Psalms and pray to God in my mind with a silent zap. A glass window floods the brightest light in the hall. I sing a hymn to praise the Lord at the pew, and I watch the choir fade to a gray hue the angel’s halo shines as if she were a doll. In a dark church near the beaten railroad track. the wood beneath my feet, creaky and old and ruby blood spills from my fragile skin. I told them, I will die as my eyes roll to black. I weep into my half-knit, woven sweater, a snowflake purple, and my nose is red. My mother puts tea to my lips. “My God, are you dead? Have a sip,” so I take the cup and write a letter. The Lord hears my “Amen” after my prayer, but I love listening to the minister recite the scripture, Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden and picture the Holy Spirit rising like a white dove. A cross and saints on the mosaic ceiling, the crucifix on the table and page creases. The stairs crumble into a million pieces the church, a few centuries old with wallpaper peeling with cracks in the broken wall and a caved-in dome I bow my head while the mass falls to their knees to God’s mighty throne and I hold the keys to the gates, knowing that I will make it my home. The bells are ringing, a candle flickers in the room, the crowd is yelling as the walls crash and pound. They begin running out over the quivering ground yet darkened hallways are like long tunnels of doom. A day will come when God will save His people, my soul will rise in the air, but I see my body at the hearse with my strange family dressing too gaudy to bury me in dirt at my grave under the steeple. The church is collapsing in ashes, I flee and exit through the door to the trees and houses, children are hurt and cry in their mother’s blouses, I watch it burn, whispering a plea. My spirit emerges as I walk to the quad in light. A silver lining to uplift and leaven a life that belongs in the greatest kingdom of Heaven, I’m reborn, an angel on pearly clouds with God. The Past A once in a lifetime plane ticket – to fly to Palo Alto “the city of haloes” and down at white clouds of the sky – in the stiff, blue chair, then race along a row of houses and care to visit a friend at a café in the town; tour-de-force – the couple – my husband and I. On a steady bus: the engine churns to bother the luggage – a thick Steve Jobs novel – falls on the wide vinyl floor, and the bus seems to freeze. We walk to the French café – “a creampuff, please,” the waitress stares (I order a café by the walls) at God, the – “Holy Spirit, Son, and Father…” “We’re your second family,” politely. The kindest power – genuine, respected – drinking her tea; I peel an orange in my calloused hands on the CalTrain moving (away) on the wooden tracks. Mon Copain, El Camino Real. The New age, my plea will pray for the world. The heart of a wilting flower falls down the aisle, moving on. Shine in the hall of mirrors, friends, the day in L.A., amazing entire postulate, tough to send dreams. I never predicted reaching the end, end for all I know. He yells, “hey,” and runs to the gate, walking a fine line. To The Writer This day, a press release from The Wall Street Journal,
“a Chicago, gray typewriter sits at the desk,” The paperback at Barnes & Noble – the published best-seller with awards and a film offer – to find a home with curtains on windows, and tread on. A kitten stares at tiny pills. If a twist in the narrative and circumstance (“writing,” on the jacket has printed, “a best book of the year”) makes you put your little black journal down – but this is a soul, is blood, is me! – to keep my intellect’s true rights. The love affairs, promise and herbs, revise, know by heart. In mid-chapter, the conflict rises with an intense death; the brave hero will live, And what about the lines that character will deliver? A powerful, divine Maker of all things allows them to fade away or tolerates it, massive chaos in the world. And would you plan to explore the characters, (In the novel in the palm of your right hand) to give them life in the story as if they’re real? – since they alone will never compare with yours. You’d prefer to imagine the dramatic plot will appear, If only a great Dane1 would be a fearless, strong wolf to close the timeless novel at the “author page,” yet a climax rises before a dénouement and leads the concerned writer, author of virtue to reach the clichéd effect, “bread of life”2 – as God created life – but, Christ is. Life… Anyway, the last thought that runs in your mind before you gaze at a stack of books on the table, is a very worthy, good life that has started another day, genuine, tough to perfect. 1 Heaney, Seamus. Beowulf. Old English Poem, 1815. 2 Eucharist, blood and body of Christ. Holy Communion / Lord’s Supper.
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