SCOTT LAUDATI - POEMS
Scott Laudati lives in Cranston, RI with his goldfish, Trish. He is the author of books Play The Devil (novel) and Hawaiian Shirts In The Electric Chair (poems). Visit him on instagram @scottlaudati
The Twilights Last Gleaming
it’s not funny
i’m not hungry
i wish i died before the 90’s came back
but no one retires at the right time
the fade is a slow burn
and usually the ones who
could’ve been good
drop out first.
they name baseball fields after them
probably a scholarship
but no one alive cares
memories replaced too soon by the next draft
and no ghosts hang like frames
in these halls
the dead don’t want any part of this shit
no one is well.
the fast clap of the audience was
muted long ago.
the people needed to eat and
stole the generator
the nypd shot at the black ones
and the white working class
didn’t like it this time.
no one is well.
they turn the lights on
but the audience doesn’t laugh
the twilight last gleamed on
some other era when we
didn’t have to hide
from the dawn
and everyone could still smile at the mirror
Everyone Hates You
everyone hates you.
even if you haven’t figured it out yet
it’ll be the confirmation of your biggest fears.
your father saw something better
your readers thought there
but they were wrong.
anyone who has ever believed in anything is wrong.
even after you put your grandfather in the ground
after the speech about how you used to sail around
the swamps of eastern maryland
and put chicken in crab traps
to see what kinds of turtles swam in for the flesh
you’ll be wrong.
about how he was your hero once.
you were wrong.
and then your aunt will find his diary
and you’ll read that he was like everyone else.
that he thought you were born with all the promise
and yet you wasted it
on a stupid major
on the women you followed like a new gospel
and all the forgotten words in your notebook
that never amounted to a decent novel,
that you would fall further
than your privilege should’ve allowed.
and you’ll think about your appetite
and how it far exceed your talent.
and you won’t fight back
because you’ll know
he was right.
the dream is over pt. II
it was so easy once.
i never had to hunch over the keys
to pull something out
words just appeared
and the second hand clicked
as i lay on my back
and put onto paper
any good word that came through.
like throwing darts at a wall
like playing william tell
and if you do this long enough
no matter how bad it starts
eventually you hit a bullseye.
but they don’t come so easy now.
you see, love lived here once
in these keys
on that paper
in the dark corners of the classroom
i faded in to as the stories
rolled out from the weekend
from the bleachers
from the diners over
cherry cokes and disco fries.
the rain fell like blue yarn that fall
and the sun never felt good either.
i wrote you a poem
about an umbrella i had
whose stem was carved to a duck head.
but it was homecoming weekend
the game sold out
and they raffled off a new bicycle at half-time
while the sophomores took turns under the bleachers.
the rain turned to ice on saturday.
my priest sang a homily sunday.
then it was monday again.
i listened in homeroom while horrible lips
smiled over the weekend.
you took a vow of silence
too bad they never did
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